11:30-12

It's been a while since I've posted.
My lover wen't to watch a film; was going to end between 11:30 and 12.
now it's 1:40
either she's fallen asleep, she's blacked out or the film is just exceptionally long.
but I have a problem; I take sleep medication.
It's so hard for me to stay awake this late. every 5 minutes i just daze into sleep and then wake up five minutes later, in a mad scramble to check my phone incase she's came.
9/10 times, se hasn't.
I wish we could both sleep proper hours; she doesn't because she can't, she's not used to it. But she should. It's healthy, no matter what the fuck she says. I can't sleep proper hours because all I want to do before I sleep is tell her that I love her.
Oh.
tonight before she wen't to watch a film, she didn't say it. maybe just forgot, maybe didn't see my message.
I'm overreacting. but I'm worried. and I'm upset.
I love her. I really do. but I can't sleep, which means I can't function at school properly, and I don't go to gym because I'm so tired.
We used to talk every night but recently she hasn't been able to. It's killing me.
I love her. but it's so hard to stay awake.